I’m headed to the hospital in about an hour for this initial procedure. They’ll remove as much of the lesion/ulcer as they can, in order to slice it up and get good diagnostic information. They should have a better idea by wednesday or thursday about just how much they’re going to have to remove next week. They should be able to give me a clearer sense of the risk of ED.. maybe even a clearer sense of the need (or not) for follow up chemo.
Yesterday really felt like the calm before the storm. It was a still, cool day in New York. A last day before things start rolling fast. Tomorrow, I’m guessing that I’ll be in a fair amount of discomfort. Wednesday and Thursday, I’m guessing I’ll have appointments to discuss the findings and prepare me for what’s to come. Friday or Saturday, I’ll obviously have to throw some sort of “fairwell to assholes” party. And Sunday, undoubtedly, I will need to empty myself out entirely for the surgery. I feel as though it’s all going to happen instantly. I’m already dreading a week in the hospital. One thing at a time!
Wish me luck.
I’m home. It was a long day. It’s definitely cancer again, and they will definitely be amputating. There is no bone involvement (this is the good news, though I didn’t even know it was a risk!!). It is unclear when exactly this will be. Maybe not monday after all. Probably next week still.. slim chance that it’ll be the following week.
Thanks for all your good thoughts and well wishes. I’ll write a real one in the morning.