the gory details

I came out of general anesthesia in more pain than I’ve ever experienced.   I can’t quite explain it.  Like being violated with a hot poker, maybe.  They gave me i.v. fentanyl (morphine on steroids) while waiting for the percocet to start working.  It took about 25 minutes to get it under control, but since then I’ve been feeling pretty ok.

I came home last night.  Very relieved to avoid spending a night in the hospital.  My good friend Bill was, as ever, ready to run to the store and make us dinner.  The doc told me that I should stick to liquids for the night..  cream soup..  and so it was.  It came back up as easily as it went down.  I always thought I had a pretty strong stomach.  Feeling fine this morning, though.  Just had coffee.  Toast coming right up.

The tumor was so close to the anal verge that they were able to dilate the anus and work on it directly, rather than with a scope of some sort.  I’m pretty sure that it was the dilation that left me hurting, more than the extraction itself.

The doc said that the procedure went well.  He removed the tumor entirely.  Said that it looked mostly like scar tissue.  Now we just wait for biopsy results.  If all goes well, and this is it..   it will be nothing short of miraculous.  I DO dare to hope.  I’m prepared to hear that they have to go back in.  It will be a little heartbreaking, but I’m braced for it.  Somehow, though, I’m not expecting it.  I’m feeling deep down as though I’ve won.

Naturally, I’ll let you all know as soon as I hear.

Thank you thank you for your thoughts.

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  1. René van den Abeelen

    Lets hope ‘this is it’.
    Any idea when you can expect the results?

  2. Matt

    Hooray for Bill!
    (the rest of the information made me wriggle on my chair a bit)

    I hope you get your miracle.

  3. Chris & Sandy

    !!! Stand strong. We are hoping for the best my friend!

  4. missy

    Whatever happens, you rule.

  5. eddy

    crossing fingers, knocking wood, spitting three times, hoping for the best.

  6. vanessa

    it all sounds really promising! right on!

  7. Thruhike98

    Awesome news, my internet friend. Congratulations. 🙂

  8. Trevor

    Good news Ezra. Start the recovery process, and get your self strong again. I’ll be praying that you’ll be finished with the knives.

  9. Amber

    Ezra- I’m here from Valancy Jane’s site (Sarah) and I myself am a survivor of colon cancer. (Two time survivor, I might add). I know what you are going through and I am super impressed with your positive and hopeful attitude because I can tell you from experience, it really helps. I will be sending prayers and good vibes and loving thoughts as you heal and I hope to hear the good news soon!

  10. Kirsten

    SO glad to hear that. Wierd to worry about someone you have never met but, clearly, I’m not alone 🙂

  11. Darla

    Hey Ezra, we at Phil Wood are just checking in to say that we’re glad you’re kicking this thing’s ass. You’re a rock!

  12. TimmyC

    Well done, sir. Well done indeed.

  13. Marian

    hey ez, so glad to hear all this I wish so much I could be there. you are amazing

  14. JS

    I just got home from work taking care of oncology patients –
    This is a great way to end my not so great day.

    This is good news – and will be GREAT, FANTASTIC, SUPERB news when you get the final path back. Take it easy.

    So many good thoughts coming your way –
    You pretty much rock.

    Well done patient –
    Well done doctors.

  15. Petros N

    Ezra, hi – I came across your stuff from American Craft ; hang in there mate, and get well and strong again soon.

  16. Mitzi

    All my mojo is going in your direction! I’m happy that things are looking so good. My thoughts are with you.

  17. derek and sara

    We are pulling for you over here! Great news and we hope that it continues!

  18. Paula P.

    So glad to hear it went well!
    I have a good feeling about this… stay strong.

  19. Chris

    This is good news. I’ve been thinking about you lately, and I’m pulling for you. Keep us posted!

  20. diane

    i hope this is over for you. sending you only good wishes and positive vibes.

  21. Yme

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you, get better quickly so you can get on with the important stuff in life.

  22. artamnesia

    Thanks for the update. Life goes on!

  23. Craig

    Hoping right there with you. Fingers, toes and spokes crossed.

  24. bob (jrobtp)

    i’ve said it before, fast–yer a fuckin’ warrior!

  25. Andrew

    Amazing. Glad this part is over and hoping for the best on the next bit. Take care.

  26. erica b.

    very happy to hear things went well. you were in my thoughts

  27. Jen

    Big ups from loving strangers in Bloomington, Indiana! Smiles and love being sent your way….

  28. Ivanna Wei

    Glad to hear the surgery went well. Hope is a very good thing to have. =)

  29. David Thurston

    Amazing. Loved the details.

  30. Jon

    Glad you are feeling better! I hope the news is good!

  31. sabine

    these are good news!
    I’ll keep my fingers crossed for the biopsy.

  32. maggie

    I am so happy for how things are going for you, Ez. I’ll keep praying…….congrats on kicking your own ass : )

  33. Eric

    good thoughts your way

  34. john

    I’ll be sending good thoughts to your butt all day.

  35. sam a

    you’re the man ezzie

  36. maya704

    Thinking of you and keeping all fingers crossed.

  37. SoapDoc

    I don’t “know” you – but this news brought tears to my eyes!! This is AWESOME!!!

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