Just a few days later now and I’m feeling worlds better.
We had Seth and Nicole over for dinner and ate outstanding food, we hung out with Galen from the left coast, I spent a day at the pool hall, Caroline stopped by and helped me clean out my shop which had been just sitting these last 5 or 6 weeks (so sad), Marcus stopped by and dropped off some coffee. (my buddy S.T. stopped by to show me the fancy new prison issue shoes that he’d gotten during his 30 day stay at Riker’s Island!! with a big apology that he’d been thinking of me the whole time and felt terrible that he had no way to tell me where he was or why he wasn’t stopping by to check on me! “bro! I got out 4 hours ago.. I came straight here, buddy.”).
I want to thank you all for your support.
Those of you writing with encouragement, it’s hard for me to even express how important your presence has been for me throughout these last years. Telling the story of this bloody process has been a powerful tool for me in coming to terms with it all.. in understanding it. Telling a story without an audience is just talking to yourself (and there’s been some of that too). Knowing that I can write it down here, and that you’ll read it, is good medicine. You’re helping me create a valuable record. Memory is fallible, often mercifully. I looked back through pictures yesterday and was reminded that just a month ago, I was stuck in a hospital and that just getting out of bed to walk a few steps in a hallway was a complicated process that involved organizing tubes and strategically draping hospital gowns. There IS progress after all!! The other day I went out in public for the better part of the day without even wearing a maxi pad!!
Those of you who dug up Megan and Nick’s donation link, it’s really above and beyond the call of duty. It makes me feel a little awkward to receive money from you all at a time when I know that EVERYONE is stretched. I am grateful, and I will have to just assume that you are giving within your means. Thank you.
Ok. That’s it for now. Tonight I’ll make some braised lamb shanks and polenta for Katypang. Maybe tomorrow I’ll finally put up the braising instructions that I’ve been promising!