Nothing but good..



I have nothing but good news.
In the last two days I have been on three bike rides.
On wednesday night Todd took me out for the first mountain bike ride I’ve been on since breaking my arm (nearly the first ride of ANY sort since breaking my arm, though I have to admit a couple of trips to fairway on the nose bike in the last few weeks..)
When I broke my arm I swallowed hard and accepted the possibility that by the time my arm was healed up enough to ride the rest of me might be far too sick to.   In the line up of things that I have had to accept with this fucking disease, I have to say that was one of the hardest.

Todd is the best ride shepherd I have ridden with.  He is not competitive.  His goal is for everyone to have a good time.  I knew that I was in good hands.  We left from my brother’s back yard and headed into the trails that my brother and Gunnar have been working on.  I swung my leg over the UTA and is just felt so very right!  Almost as though the bike was built for me!!  My arm felt fine.  Seems to be all healed up.  My BALANCE felt fine..  No sign that the copious amounts of narcotics that I’m on have effected motor skills at all.. My LEGS felt fine, miraculously.  I haven’t done any exersize in the two months since I broke my arm and yet..  there they were!!   It took me about three minutes of riding to feel as though I’d never stopped!  We didn’t do a long ride..  25 minutes or so.  That had been the plan.  I did feel a little winded at the top of one or two steep climbs..  I did feel that things have moved around in my body.  I’ll admit, a creepy feeling.  BUT not pain, happily.  We got back to the house in one piece.



“SO.  How’d he do?”  asked Zach.
“Tenititve for the first two minutes and then Strava hot lap..   He hasn’t lost anything..”
“Well..    That’s pretty fucking irritating..”

I ate a lot that night.  I slept well.
Yesterday morning I went out again, this time with Zach and Gunnar.  Three Caldwell boys on their Fast Boy bikes!!!  Pretty awesome.
Gunnar is a CHAMP.  The kid can really ride!  He’s got excellent balance.  He can stall on a tricky spot, but then hang with it and keep going.  It made me so proud.  Thinking back to our crazy week together in the shop building that bike..   Then seeing him ride it, and seeing him ride it so well!   I WILL get some video.  Stay tuned.

When I got back from that ride, Hill was ready  for a turn..  SO off we went.  I used Todd’s monster cross bike and HIll and I went on a little dirt road ride around the backroads where I grew up.  TOO fun.  Got caught in the rain.. rode some really steep hills.  Hill did great!  She’s only ever ridden a bike in the city..  Flat pavement.  Hill’s (up and down) with loose dirt and washboards are a pretty different story, but she kicked ass…  AND SOMEHOW I managed to keep going too!  I think we probably ended up riding about 20 miles.


I’m writing this post from the the offices of Caldwell Law.  My cousin Tim is an estate lawyer and has prepared my will.  It is a very strange feeling to be stopping in to write up my will on the way to pre-ride a course that Amy (my sister in law) will be racing on Sunday.  Hill is going to have her first mountain bike ride!  The course is apparently smooth and rolly and fast, so it seemed like a good time to put Hill on the proto TA and let her have a crack at it.

So there you have it.  There’s my update.  I’m feeling GREAT!  I’m riding bikes.  So is Hill.  The food is great because produce at this time of year in Vermont is unbeatable.


FINALLY!   I have an exciting announcement.  I’ll have some more to say about this in another post, but at the moment, Hill and Amy are waiting for me to finish up so that we can get to the course and RIDE!!

There is a hand built bike show in NYC coming up in about a month.  The folks organizing it have dedicated it to me, and will be donating a percentage of the proceeds to whatever charity I decide!  The UTA will be on display along with the Assless and the Hardass.  I will BEGIN the auction for the UTA that weekend.  I hope to see you all there!


Ok.  Off to ride bikes!!


Big love.



Fast Boy out.

50 Replies to “Nothing but good..”

  1. Hi ho Silver, away with you and Hill, may you keep riding, enjoying and living, sending good positive updates!!! Dog bliss you two and those who surround you with love, including me, XO

  2. i’m going to make a prediction- you’re going to live to see another day and build more bikes

    you’ve got the stuff to beat this bugger back

    i believe it!

  3. Really enjoying the photos- I swear I can smell the air there. Imagining fireflies at dusk and the sound of tree frogs all night.

  4. ezra you are always a big fun to read, fun actually is not the word.. you capture man. in spite of all the gloomy things… what can i say. you live a great life and you rock man! i’m following all your posts. see ya! be well!

  5. Hi Ezra, Looks like you’re having a grand time. I’m smiling too. 😉
    Much love and happiness…keep having fun! xo Robin

  6. Ezra,
    So good to know you are out there on the trails and roads of your old stomping grounds having fun….thanks for sharing your joy. No get out there and ride!
    All my best,

  7. That’s unbelievable news Ezra!!!!!!!!!! Im so glad you and Hill are out there getting in some amazing rides. I truly believe the better you make yourself feel the worse off the cancer is. Fuck you Cancer!!!!!! I had an ETD of one year and I’m currently in Remission. I’ve been getting out on my bike and doing fun things with family & friends. I’m doing a six-day rafting trip and going rock climbing in Moab, facing some fears & getting out there. I check your posts every time you post and root hard for you. You are too strong to let cancer have the upper hand. Keep up the good fight and keep enjoying life! Your attitude is contagious. You have no idea how many people you affect positively with your voice. Big love from the battlefield!

  8. Hi Ezra
    followed your TCTC (teaching cancer to cry ) for a while .I have been rooting
    for you even though I do not know you . Your positive attitude has made me look at my life , like so many others out there we take a lot for granted .I wish you well and I have a feeling you will go from strength to strength . Your will to live !, will set you free from this terrible illness .All the best .

    Jeff Wyman NY


  10. ezra

    i want to tell you a story about my friend abe. this is going back aways. abe had AIDS and one year, he was so sick we thought he would die at any minute. he was in the hospital for about 10 months out of the year, hooked to an IV pole, his chest all sunken
    when he finally got out, he did something crazy- he booked himself a cruise through the greek isles. i remember the day he returned and came to my shop to visit me. i didn’t know who he was! he looked like some movie star. he was so tan he seemed a person of another race! he had filled out. i wondered how we all could have thought he was dying when he looked now as if he’d live forever!
    his doctor was pissed! told him he would regret it! he did everything on that cruise that he wasn’t supposed to do: he ate shellfish, he drank wine, he was with people who didn’t know he was sick and didn’t treat him as though he was sick and so he started to not be sick!
    once back home,he got a job, got off disability and eventually stopped going to the AIDS support groups he had been attending; he no longer had anything in common with those sad men
    he became a well respected broadway props person, made a great salary and for years lived a normal happy full life
    he eventually succumbed but really, he had 15 great years
    i think you are doing what he did, that vermont is your “greece”
    keep cruising!

  11. Wow this previous story is something. innit?

    I wish you your greece bro!
    Enjoy the rides… its good for all of you!

  12. Ezra–i’ve been following your blog for a while too–it’s amazing and i’m wishing you all the best. I am a medical oncologist at the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance, and i am interested in buying some of your prints–but i couldn’t find a place on your other website to send you an email…so i’ve leaving one here. Thanks so much. Tony

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.